Written on: Saturday, October 27, 2007 Time: 8:13 AM
Everybody, put up your hands and say, "i dont wanna be in love". shes going out to forget they were together for all that time, she was taken for granted. man. guess what just happened? not just. yesterday. and it just happened, I'M IN THE PICTURE. (: read tyn's blog and you'll know. would EVERYONE just grow up? why does everyone i meet in this year are so fucking fucked up with problems that aren't problems? its just SOMETHING thats so fucking childish. oh please. let explain what happen on Friday, 26 october 2007.
WE, rachel, michelle, shaz, sheryl and deanne are SUPPOSE to go out to watch a movie as it was THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. and somewhat deanne FELT ILL and said she wanted to go back to tp when we're all the way at serangoon. and so, when we reached the mrt station, deanne alrd made up her mind saying that she'll go back to tp. AS SHERYL WAS FUCKING NICE, she went back with deanne to tp. and when they reached tp, deanne said she wanted to go to macs to slack. so sheryl had to follow. TYN, you called her NO LIFE for that? man. and you say you treasure her for all that shit and you said this kind of thing to her. dont you owe her an apology too? AND, all those while when we were at different places, we were messaging each other. we suggested to GO HOME TOGETHER. and there TYN came and told sheryl to go home with her. SHERYL THOUGHT TYN WAS GOING HOME LATE. SO SHE SAID OKAY AND DIDNT TELL HER SHE WAS WAITING FOR ME TOO. and for some REASONS, TYN said she CANT SACRIFICE something just for her. oh please. sacrifice? are you USING THE RIGHT WORD? you have YOUR CIP is your fucked up problem because thats your RESPONSIBILITY in order to help you in you 'o' levels. and you call that SACRIFICING? arent you too selfish? man. i've NO IDEA how did i get to this mess. i dont even know why am i speaking up for sheryl when SHE doesnt even care. _____________________________________________________ anyways, i've made up my mind. i sacrifice for all of you. though i think i'm not really in the picture. (partly) i just cant help but to get jealous. fuck. :/ but anyways, i really dont wanna have anything to do with you guys anymore. pet, christine, dont get the wrong idea. cause you know i wont wanna leave you guys. but you should know who i'm talking bout.
i really REALLY dont wanna talk to you guys, or have ANYTHING to do with you guys. i thought this could last till 2 months more. but i guess i really dont wanna spoil my holidays in this fucking mess. ___________________________________________ to sheryl: i gave chances. i told you how i feel everytime. i forgive whatever you do. i always treated you and put you FIRST in my life. i promise to take care of you. i promise not to keep anything from you. i promise not to get you jealous. i promise i promise i promise. you did too. you promised too. you always do. to everyone. to everybody. but hey, why everytime you just have to break it for all sorts of reasons thats gotta do with your friends? hey, i get it okay. all of them just mean something MUCH MUCH more to you. i get it. but really, im not that kind of person that FORCES you to talk to me, make those empty promises and all when you're not willing to. or in such cases, you cant hold up to it. you told me you do care about me. but it really dont seem that way to me. i cant HELP but to think you dont. i know i keep bringing all these up. and i know its getting really annoying. and I KNOW, i always cause trouble in between your friends. i wanna STOP IT. i wanna STOP THIS. lets just end it okay. get use to not messaging each other. get use to it. take this 2 mths oppotunity to get rid of that habit. i dont know how would you feel after reading this. happy? "sad"? i dont know.
let me ask you. HAVE I EVER MEANT ANYTHING, ANYTHING TO YOU? well, i really DOUBT so. everytime i'll just go hinting to you but you just dont get it. i dont know what im doing now. but i clearly know, i dont wanna keep you by my side. you go on and keep tyn happy. apologise to her. promise her the stuff she wants.
and whatever happened this past few months, it was the sweetest memories. but now, its just something that HURTS whenever i think about it. forget about what i wrote in the farewell letter. i dont even think its worthy for you to read it. tear it. burn it. god damn it. do whatever you wanna do with it. i just dont wanna be in any of this gooey stuff. right now, i just wanna forget. forget about you, forget about everything. go on being someone, you were not infront of me.
have i said, you're just like a two headed snake? infront of me you are as if someone who is so soft spoken, shy and all. behind my back, you're so loud, hyper and all. i dont know the reason why but i know somethings wrong. whatever okay. i dont know which is the real you anymore. no. not even once. those "i want you to care about me" "i dont want you to regret" "i treasure you okay" "i care about you" and stuff like that, are those what you really wanna tell me? or its just that you THOUGHT i was someone else and you said it to the wrong person?
i really think its wrong of me to do whatever i've done for YOU. cause you just dont seem to see it, feel it or even APPRECIATE IT. treating you like a bestie was really a mistake. cause i dont seem like someone whose important to you at all. i'm your good friend. or you said, "SUPER" good friend. cant i mean something much more?? why did i keep saying all those stuff that gets so irritating and annoying? thats cause i was HINTING YOU. you just didnt get it. not even the words in the song. its okay. i'm use to it anyway.
i dont know how you became so important to me. i really dont. its up to you whether you wanna keep this friendship or not. but PLEASE. solve everything first before talking to me. or SOLVE EVERYTHING AND LET GO OF THIS. think about it. its time for reflection.
i dont wanna cry. but i just cant help it. i hate you. i hate the stuff you do that acts like a knife to my heart. and i hate myselfto keep thinking to myself while typing this: " should i let go?, " should i just forgive and forget?" , "shall i post this?", " would i regret?" man. that clearly shows how much i treasure you.
i said i love you. i meant it. but how bout you?
you dont get it. you just dont. right now, i just feel betrayed and disappointed.
sorry to break my promise for not writing anything about you on my blog. or to say, negative stuff? but i really dont know how to put things to you over sms. i'm sorry anyway..
Written on: Saturday, October 27, 2007 Time: 8:13 AM
Everybody, put up your hands and say, "i dont wanna be in love". shes going out to forget they were together for all that time, she was taken for granted. man. guess what just happened? not just. yesterday. and it just happened, I'M IN THE PICTURE. (: read tyn's blog and you'll know. would EVERYONE just grow up? why does everyone i meet in this year are so fucking fucked up with problems that aren't problems? its just SOMETHING thats so fucking childish. oh please. let explain what happen on Friday, 26 october 2007.
WE, rachel, michelle, shaz, sheryl and deanne are SUPPOSE to go out to watch a movie as it was THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. and somewhat deanne FELT ILL and said she wanted to go back to tp when we're all the way at serangoon. and so, when we reached the mrt station, deanne alrd made up her mind saying that she'll go back to tp. AS SHERYL WAS FUCKING NICE, she went back with deanne to tp. and when they reached tp, deanne said she wanted to go to macs to slack. so sheryl had to follow. TYN, you called her NO LIFE for that? man. and you say you treasure her for all that shit and you said this kind of thing to her. dont you owe her an apology too? AND, all those while when we were at different places, we were messaging each other. we suggested to GO HOME TOGETHER. and there TYN came and told sheryl to go home with her. SHERYL THOUGHT TYN WAS GOING HOME LATE. SO SHE SAID OKAY AND DIDNT TELL HER SHE WAS WAITING FOR ME TOO. and for some REASONS, TYN said she CANT SACRIFICE something just for her. oh please. sacrifice? are you USING THE RIGHT WORD? you have YOUR CIP is your fucked up problem because thats your RESPONSIBILITY in order to help you in you 'o' levels. and you call that SACRIFICING? arent you too selfish? man. i've NO IDEA how did i get to this mess. i dont even know why am i speaking up for sheryl when SHE doesnt even care. _____________________________________________________ anyways, i've made up my mind. i sacrifice for all of you. though i think i'm not really in the picture. (partly) i just cant help but to get jealous. fuck. :/ but anyways, i really dont wanna have anything to do with you guys anymore. pet, christine, dont get the wrong idea. cause you know i wont wanna leave you guys. but you should know who i'm talking bout.
i really REALLY dont wanna talk to you guys, or have ANYTHING to do with you guys. i thought this could last till 2 months more. but i guess i really dont wanna spoil my holidays in this fucking mess. ___________________________________________ to sheryl: i gave chances. i told you how i feel everytime. i forgive whatever you do. i always treated you and put you FIRST in my life. i promise to take care of you. i promise not to keep anything from you. i promise not to get you jealous. i promise i promise i promise. you did too. you promised too. you always do. to everyone. to everybody. but hey, why everytime you just have to break it for all sorts of reasons thats gotta do with your friends? hey, i get it okay. all of them just mean something MUCH MUCH more to you. i get it. but really, im not that kind of person that FORCES you to talk to me, make those empty promises and all when you're not willing to. or in such cases, you cant hold up to it. you told me you do care about me. but it really dont seem that way to me. i cant HELP but to think you dont. i know i keep bringing all these up. and i know its getting really annoying. and I KNOW, i always cause trouble in between your friends. i wanna STOP IT. i wanna STOP THIS. lets just end it okay. get use to not messaging each other. get use to it. take this 2 mths oppotunity to get rid of that habit. i dont know how would you feel after reading this. happy? "sad"? i dont know.
let me ask you. HAVE I EVER MEANT ANYTHING, ANYTHING TO YOU? well, i really DOUBT so. everytime i'll just go hinting to you but you just dont get it. i dont know what im doing now. but i clearly know, i dont wanna keep you by my side. you go on and keep tyn happy. apologise to her. promise her the stuff she wants.
and whatever happened this past few months, it was the sweetest memories. but now, its just something that HURTS whenever i think about it. forget about what i wrote in the farewell letter. i dont even think its worthy for you to read it. tear it. burn it. god damn it. do whatever you wanna do with it. i just dont wanna be in any of this gooey stuff. right now, i just wanna forget. forget about you, forget about everything. go on being someone, you were not infront of me.
have i said, you're just like a two headed snake? infront of me you are as if someone who is so soft spoken, shy and all. behind my back, you're so loud, hyper and all. i dont know the reason why but i know somethings wrong. whatever okay. i dont know which is the real you anymore. no. not even once. those "i want you to care about me" "i dont want you to regret" "i treasure you okay" "i care about you" and stuff like that, are those what you really wanna tell me? or its just that you THOUGHT i was someone else and you said it to the wrong person?
i really think its wrong of me to do whatever i've done for YOU. cause you just dont seem to see it, feel it or even APPRECIATE IT. treating you like a bestie was really a mistake. cause i dont seem like someone whose important to you at all. i'm your good friend. or you said, "SUPER" good friend. cant i mean something much more?? why did i keep saying all those stuff that gets so irritating and annoying? thats cause i was HINTING YOU. you just didnt get it. not even the words in the song. its okay. i'm use to it anyway.
i dont know how you became so important to me. i really dont. its up to you whether you wanna keep this friendship or not. but PLEASE. solve everything first before talking to me. or SOLVE EVERYTHING AND LET GO OF THIS. think about it. its time for reflection.
i dont wanna cry. but i just cant help it. i hate you. i hate the stuff you do that acts like a knife to my heart. and i hate myselfto keep thinking to myself while typing this: " should i let go?, " should i just forgive and forget?" , "shall i post this?", " would i regret?" man. that clearly shows how much i treasure you.
i said i love you. i meant it. but how bout you?
you dont get it. you just dont. right now, i just feel betrayed and disappointed.
sorry to break my promise for not writing anything about you on my blog. or to say, negative stuff? but i really dont know how to put things to you over sms. i'm sorry anyway..
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