Written on: Friday, November 30, 2007
Time: 9:23 AM
Time: 9:23 AM
i feel suffocated without you by my side..
i've always wanted to say this to you.
but i thought you didnt care.
to pet:
i really feel damn fucked up now.
i dont know what to do.
and what not to do.
grahhhhhhhhhhhh.
okay.
i know it was wrong of me to say i wont forgive sheryl okay..
and im sorry that after that two weeks of hating her, i started talking to her.
ifeelsoterrible.
i feel like a traitor.
and i feel like a backstabber..
and im really really sorry.
i really wanna make it up to you.
but i dont know how to.
cause im afraid you dont trust me no more.
no. you dont trust me anymore.
and i know you wont trust me no more.
but i really really want you to know that,
i still do treasure you okay.
infact, ALOT.
but i dont wanna accept the fact i am,
and i dont wanna show it out,
cause im afraid you dont care about this friendship at all.
thats why i moved along.
and i thought the friends by your side now is all what you need.
that was why i didnt wanna come in between.
i knew something was wrong when you told shaz you were angry with me.
and i knew something was wrong when we started drifting apart.
and i knew something was wrong with me when i started missing you,
being by my side.
but when i knew it, it was too late.
i no longer see you coming to me anymore.
no longer hear you telling me you trust me alot.
and no longer recieving you phone calls telling me bout your problems.
and im not blaming you.
i'm blaming myself.
i'm blaming myself for not treasuring you when i had a good opportunity to.
i'm blaming myself for not expressing myself out well to you.
and im sorry if i made you feel left out.
but hey, im not blaming you for having netball all the time okay.
though i may say im pissed im pissed,
hey, you think i bear to be pissed at you?
i wont okay..
i know you wont believe me.
and knowing that, i really dont know what to do.
i want those times back.
i reallly do.
but i guess you dont care about me anymore dont you..
its okay. im just a small fry anyway..
i want to have a chance to make it up to you.
but will you give me another chance?
i doubt so..
i'm losing all the confidence now.
because from day 1 i met you till now,
YOU WERE NEVER OPEN WITH ME.
you're angry with me.
at least show it out and lemme know.
so i know how you feel and i would know what to do.
sigh. i really dont know what to say now.
you signed out without telling me.
thanks.
thanks ah.
Written on: Thursday, November 29, 2007
Time: 12:35 AM
Time: 12:35 AM
i am captured by a lovestorm from your heart,
giving me a brand new start.
&its gonna last forever.
oooh. its wednesday baby.
not cool. ];
sheryl is flying off againn..
wait, she flew off alrd. ];
sighhs.
i'm gonna miss her soooo muchh.
grahgg.
anyways,
went to sent her off in teh evening together with deanne.
[we're such sweet friends xD]
hahaha.
rightrightt.
yupp.
before heading to changi,
deanne came over my place to put her contacts on.
haha.
coolcool.
purple eyeballs.
hahah!
yeahh.
we kinda wasted alot of time at my place
trying to get the cube done.
hahah!
yesh. and i was blowing my BEA-U-TI-FOOL HAIR.
haha.
and who knows?
when we're in the cab,
SHERYL WAS STILL AT HOME.
grahh.
lol. so obviously we reached changi first
and started loitering around changi
also, to find sakae sushi.
xDDD
yup. and when sheryl arrived,
we went to meet her at some no.6 place.
haha. yeahh. so long never see her alrd.
anyways, we talktalktalk,
saw her mom and talked to her grandma.
AND GUESS WHAT.
SHE THOUGHT DEANNE WAS MY DAUGHTER.
wthhhhhhhhh.
*grumbles*
*rolls on the floor*
*jumps*
*screams*
GRAHHHHHHHH!!
MY DAUGHTER??
mann, i gotta act younger.
]];
haha.
yup.
and i passed sheryl her gonggong looking donkey- eeyoree.
hahah.
she brought it to india with her. xD
and guess what she msged me after she went into the imigration thing?
"eh, you must everyday tell me if you angry okay. :D
thanks for the eeyore. :D it looks as cute as me man."
like like like,
i was thinking,
FOR 12 DAYS WHEN YOU'RE IN INDIA,
I MUST MSG YOU
"eh, i not anggryy"
or
"eh, i'm DAMN angryy" ahh?
lol. ohh mann.
so retarded.
:XX
and
WTH. ahaha. cute as you?
yeah, the eeyore is cute honnayye.
but you.. .. ..
HAHAHA. kaykay.
cute lah.
xDD
grahh. so, after we sent sheryl off,
we went to eat,
SAKAEEE,
coolcool.
took pictures of the yummy food mann.
yum yum XD sheryl couldnt join us. ]]:
ooooh. deanne ordered this for us to share. gawd. it was gooooood. [[;
lets see what we ordered.
2 plates of sashimi [raw salmon]
2 chawanmushi (or however you spell the steamegg thing. :X)
1 cha soba [cold noodles]
1 wasabiko [the green sushi with wasabi eggs]
woots. and guess the bill!
hahaha
it was only 27 plus plus plus.
ahah. i cant remember. but it was 20 plus. xD
wooohooo. me love.
okayy.
ooohh. i gotta new thing to do in my blogg.
grah. its called "guess what does this remind anne of" :DDDD
hahaha.
well, i'll post it then the next post i shall say who does it remind me off.
xDDD
okayy.
lets seee..
who does these two things remind you of? :]]]]
HAHA. AND GUESS WHERE DO YOU NORMALLY SEE THIS XD
&you're the reason why love is here to stay
Written on: Monday, November 26, 2007
Time: 11:56 PM
Time: 11:56 PM
Ain't it cold, when the one you love lets you go,
and you've got no one to hold?
and you've got no one to hold?
yeah.
thats the way you make me feel.
alright honnayyeees! its posting time. woot.
its thurs today. but i shall talk about.. uhm.. monday? first? :D
its mondayyyyy!!!
coolcool.
met up with deanne to go SHOP.
well, not reeally.
haha. WINDOW SHOPP! :D
she actually called me last night to ask whether am i free.
and i thought i wasnt UNTILL SOMEBODY CANCELLED OUR DATE..??
yuupp.
so i said i was.
she actually said to meet at 12.
but i couldnt make it. so i asked her to meet yiru first.
met them at 1pm.
coolestt!
haha. saw both of them with PURPLE EYEBALLS.
grahh. it was cool. i wanna get a grey or hazel one. xD
but anyways, yupp. i brought darling deanne to cineeee!
haha, she THOUGHT it was her first time there.
but then she realised she has been there before,
but didnt know the name of the building.
HAHA. haiyo. deanne, you crack me upp.
yupp. went theere to take neos andd buy presents for
pet and sheryl.
hahah. like so random. i'm just gonna give it randomly.
xDDD
i bought an eeyore for sheryl.
cause she finds that gongong, tail-less donkey cute.
hahaha. cant stand her. GRAHH. ooohh, and she'll be BACKK todayy honn.
:D
coolest.
and i bought something to do with spongebob for petty boob.
xDDD
when i see her, i shall pass it to her.
xDD
great.
after cine, we went to AMK HUB ARCADEEE.
haha, i swear deanne made me addicted to arcades.
esp. the beat the buttons thingy.
grahhh.
hahahah.
okayy.
lets post some pictures honnayye.
xD
in the bus. xD i look screwed.
ooooh paranoma. i like this effect. xD
Written on: Sunday, November 25, 2007
Time: 1:46 AM
Time: 1:46 AM
i remember way back when..
those were the times.
gahh. i was looking through my com, and i found all these pictures. aww.. i miss it though.. )):
oh mannn.
gahh! remember this honnayyes? haha, i miss you guys luhh. ]:
ooh.. those were the times honnayye. having fun in one seven xD
gahh. i want school to start soon!! ];
AH! SILLY DONKIES. STUPID RACHAEL. :D I MISS RACHAAAAEL. ]:
OOO. this sure is old. michelle still had long haairr. :DD
OOO. this sure is old. michelle still had long haairr. :DD
gahh. stupid michelle. so caught up with church and no time for me huh.
ask you out still must see how..
your neh neh luhh.
GAHH. HOLIDAYS ARE SO BORING THOUGHH.
gahgorhsss.
okayyy.
i gotta date with eunice tommorrow. :D
&rachael, shaz. michelle, melissa.a.n. : DD
anyone wannts to come along?
go shopppp :D :D :D
i'm happy.
&
another date with honnayye deanne on wedd. bee moooviee.
probs. cause i might have to work. xD
but mostly no luh.
cause im good.
i'll wanna accompany dee dee. : D
alrightty. :D
i'm better now.
sorry for the previous post.
luckily there was melissa and christine being there for me last night.
or i could've died.
: D
iloveyouguys.
sighh.
melissa is always always ALWAYS there for me.
:DD
gah, i love you lahh. :D
stupid girl.
you're the one who completes me baby. you're the one who makes me whole.
if you ever leave me, i'd be lost, i'll be going crazy.
'cause i dont want nobody else. i just wanna be with you.'
but i guess, i should accept you that way, who you are and believe in you then.. ;]
Written on: Saturday, November 24, 2007
Time: 8:09 AM
okay.ikindajustfeltsomethingafterhearingasongandirememberedsomethingthatmeand___weretalkingabouttoday.rightrightright.gahh.whydidweactuallytalkaboutit.Time: 8:09 AM
fuck.ifeelfuckedup.idontwannafeelthatwayagain.idontknowwhatimthinkingnow.amiareallybaddddfriend?isitmyfaultthatididntmeetherthewaytheothersmetheronthefirsttime?rahhhhhh!!!!wthhhh.okayy.ireallydontwannafeelthatwayagain.ori'llbreakallmypromisesandall.fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfucfkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcufkcfukfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfcufkcufkfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfcufkcukfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfcufkfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
istillwonderifyou'rekeepingthingsfromme.gah,ijustcanthelpbuttogetjealousrightnow.(notinthatwaythat____isfeeling)gahhhhh.
ifeelweirdaboutthewholething.itslike..WHAT!?gahh.idontknowidontknow.
probablyyouwouldntevencareifidie.
yeah,youwouldnthonnayye.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck..rahhhhhhhhhhhhh.iminamess.
whyiseveryonesoattractedtoyou?itslikeimsharingareallysmallpieceofcake.andidontevenknowwhoyoureallywanttobewith.itsreallyREALLYkillingme.
damntheworld.
whyarewecreatedwiththefeelling"jealousy"?
rahh.
damnit.
goddamnit.
Time: 5:24 AM
Happy endings gone forever more.
live the rest of our lifes,
but not together..
woohoo. i've gotta new song honnayyes.
:DDD
sad song though.
doesn't match my life.
hahahaha.
i need a happy song.
no.
i need a " missing a friend" song.
GAHH.
ANW, good day todayy. (:
went out with darling melissaaaaa. :DD
went to watch enchanted together.
GAWD. its damn funny.
xxxDDD
i was laughing my ass out i swear.
we couldnt finish our poppy corny.
:X
sorrayye popcorn popper.
hahah.
after the show, we headed to orchaard. xD
nicenice.
window shopped!
asshole.
so tempting luhh.
i was shopping for christmas gift too.
and the one girl i thought of was ____.
hahah. mel knows. (:
i think i saw something that suits her.
XDD
gonna get it. : D
shopped from forever21, to topshop, to zara, to dorothy perkins.
and sat at the steps next to sarbucks. (around wheelock)
ate hotdoggy and talked.
gahh. im kinda scared of ____ now.
))):
gahhhhh!
anw, who cares luh.
just dont hurt my bestieee can alrd. (:
and went to penin!!
bought another pair of skinnies.
woots woots.
black one.
i'm aiming for another red, lime green, yellow, white &&&moreee.
hahahah
wahahah
muahahah.
bleah.
okays. lets type some lyrics honnayye.
((((:
oh, before i do that,
lets go back to my first paragraph!
I MISS SHERYL PHUA THAT DONKEYYY. )):
GAHHHH. ):
QUICKLY GET YOUR BUTT BACK TO SG LAAAA. )):
I MISSSSSSSS YOUUUU LAAAAA.
HAHAHA.
okay. i let it all out. (: (:
or i was gonna explode.
xD
this is the way you left me,
i'm not pretending.
no hope, no love, no glory,
no happy ending.
this is the way that we love,
like its forever.
then live the rest of our lives,
but not together.
this is the hardest story,
that i have ever told.
no hope or love or glory.
happy endings gone forever more..
)):
saddy.
Written on: Sunday, November 18, 2007
Time: 12:27 AM
Time: 12:27 AM
Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight,
You and I were made to get love right.
lalalalaa. (:
yeeepeee.
i'm eating fishballs.
haha, i like. (:
i'm like super boreeddd.
i just transfered some songs into a disc. : D
then go home to transfer them into my phone.
xDD
ooh. and i just watched a horror movie.
its called "dark tales of japan"
it has many series in there.
it tells about tales that happened in japan.
hahaha, dont know if its true though.
but anyways,
there was one particular story about this woman who actually turned into a spider.
lol. i thought it was lame.
but there was a story behind it.
:X
its like, this woman who DETESTS spiders.
and whenever she sees one at home,
she'll find ways to kill it.
burn it, chop it and all.
GAH. SO DISGUSTING.
and one night, she got possessed by a spider. :X
and she became a spider and started eating and mating with human guys.
:X
ahahah.
yeah, and at the end of the story, narator was saying,
spiders keeps the house clean. by eating other insects and all.
but this woman doesnt care.
she just kills and kills.
so, yeaah. kinda revenge or something. :X
yupp.
i dont know if i cna believe in all this.
but it happened around me before. :X
this small boy whose my dad's friend son,
he loves to go market and poke crabs.
poke poke poke.
and somehow, he started behaving like a crab.
doesnt talk, walks like a crab and all.
then they went to the priest and ask and the priest said he is possessed.
yeah. so they had to buy crabs to pray to them.
xxd
so scary.
got one more.
but i lazy to type out. xD
yeah.
and my aunt, who hates lizards, whennever she sees one, she'll not let it off.
and after watching that show, shes kinda scared now. xD
hahah.
okays.
im gonna find something to do now.
buhbyeeee.
;i know it from the start, you have a place deep down my heart.
Written on: Saturday, November 17, 2007
Time: 8:48 AM
Time: 8:48 AM
oh! and..
thankyou deanne darlinggg!
for doing that poogey thing.
or is it.. uhm, poogoo?
lol. i lazy to open another window to check.
anw, thanks yeahh?
and who says i love _____ more than you?you're dumb to think that way. (:
i love you tooo okay?
( probably i don't show it out well to you. :X )
i think baby, you should get that off your mind
make it seem like a brighter day
i may not say those words,
but maybe i can make it my way.
you ask me do i love you but
do you remember,
why i walked on the water for you.
do you remember,
my first steps on the moon.
have you ever wondered
why i gave three wishes to you.
you asked the question,
but the answer lies in you.
(:
but i'll try alright? iloveyoudeanneeeee! <<<<333
Time: 8:18 AM
I gave my heart to you.
Now my heart's in two,
& i cant find the other half.
i'm a crazy elephant. : D
heeepeee!
i've got a newwww phone yesterday!
got the new w910i.
woots.
shaker phoneee.
shake shake shake.
actually, i find it of no use to me. :X
my hand tired. :X
shake shake shake.
hahah.
and i'm super slow at messaging now.
darn it.
so many new words to key inside.
and the spacing is different from nokia luh.
i'm such a noob. :S
oooohhzy.
i'm gonna have internetty at home soon.
AND A BLOODY HOUSE PHONE.
gahhhh.
i'm a happy aunty.
xD
went to subscribe yesterdayy.
thats how i got the phone. xD
i got it for only $398
gahgorhs.
woottts.
okay. i'm like speaking baby language now.
oooh. michelley ka pooney
and
shazzy wazzy!
BEE MOVIEE ON MONDAYYE?
: D
i'll TRY asking my mommmy
xD
okays.
and i wanna ask pet along.
kinda miss her. :X
i shall call her tomorrow. (:
petty boob!
if you're reading this,
you're gonna recieve a phone call from yo mamma. : D
love me.
oh yes, oh yes, you do. (:
okay. i shall bloody end
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
HERE.
BYE BOOBS. XD
you're just a selfish jean.
yes you are.
;its like i'm walking on broken glass.
Written on: Sunday, November 11, 2007
Time: 1:37 AM
Time: 1:37 AM
I despise that i adore you.
killing me softly with his song
singing my life with his words.
i just changed my blogskinn!
hahaha, i'm a happy bunny.
i've got a glittered bra strap. xDD
woohoo woohoo.
okay. i'm SUPERB BOREDD.
BLADDY BLADDY BOO.
anyways, tomorrow watching stardust!!
woots.
go vivo. xDD
dont know if michelle and melissa coming.
:XX
gotta tell them the plan. :D :D
exciteddd.
okay, im bored.
im gonna find something to do.
lovvess!
p.s: darling deanneyy.
hope things are alright yeahh.
dont get too worked up.
not good for your health.
xxD
remember to hang those hello kitty underwears!!
LOVES.
i wanna be with you
gotta be with you
need to be with you.
Written on: Saturday, November 10, 2007
Time: 8:31 AM
Time: 8:31 AM
just the sound of your voice, makes my heart melt.
you never have to question my love
i'm all about us
I AM SLEEPY.
went to deanne's church today.
funnn.
its like a rock concert.
: DDD
got special guest!!
: DDD
hahah,
sheryl went toooo.
she smelled good. :XXX
hahah.
and yayy. she didnt feel awkward!
she made me happy. hahah.
anyways, the church was cool.
so dark.
so many songss.
hahah,
AND MY BLADDER WAS GONNA BURST.
sooo cold luhhh!
and sheryl and deanne didnt careee ):
hahah. probs they are too engrossed with their own bladder.
:XX
anddd,
i read tyn's email.
im touchedd by what sheryl said though.
and at the same time..
i feel..
guilty.
yeahh..
im feeling mixed.
idontknow.
its like..
i actually didnt think that sheryl would choose between me and tyn.
gah.
its really not what i wanted to happen or what i was expecting sheryl to do..
yeahh.
idontknow. :XX
but i kinda feel lucky that i have a friend like sheryl after reading that email though..
but at the same time, i feel selfish. :d
yeahh.
i feel like i really wronged sheryl all these while :X
ahhh.
and this make me treaure her EVEN more now. (:
yeah.
i cant really copy and paste the whole email cause its kinda personal. hahahah.
and sheryl might KILL ME.
gahh.
hahaha.
but yeahh,
ilovesheryl!!
to tyn:
yeahh.. im sorry too yeahh..
for coming in between..
for scolding you and all.
telling you that i was irritated with you too.
but i couldnt help it cause,
as you know,
sheryl really means alot to me.
and like, you kinda insulted her unreasonably and all..
i couldnt help but to poke my nose into it..
im sorry for acting so harsh yeahh.
hope you guys can be friends again.
okay. done. :D
now, melissaaaa!
man, i saw her blogg. so sweet luh she.
man, i feel guilty and i really feel terrible for not treasuring her..
okay. i shall say about her noww. : DDD
replyy!
to melissa:
man, im really touched by what you wrote me.
anyways, im really sorry for neglecting you, leaving you out of my circle of friends.
i really feel like a jerk.
you've always been there for me.
keeping your promises.
never leaving me out.
you're really a friend that everyone should treasure.
and i was the lucky one.
you treasured me.
but i didnt.
:X
uhm, i didnt, didnt treasure you.
just, didnt know how to.
cause you're too perfect.
you're a friend everyone would dream of.
and you're the perfect bestfriend to make.
ever since last year.
i'm always disappointing you..
breaking all my promises.
but i swear, i've never forgotten what i promised.
i promised never to hurt you again.
but on and on, i did.
i really dont know how to make it up to you.
its like the biggest sin i've ever done.
but i guess its all too late now yeahh..
we found the path that we wanna walk.
and we're happy with that direction im sure?
but more or less,
i reaally wanna apologise for hurting you 7 times.
i PROMISE you. no more okay?
i really dont wanna pierce another knife into your heart anymore..
cause i finally know how you felt.
and im really really sorry.
lets always and forever remain as friends okay?
i do miss the times when we used to go out and have funn.
i do miss it even when im not talking to you.
yupp.
imsorryokayy?
iloveyouloadss!! : DD
outing sooonn!
:DD
Written on: Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Time: 4:49 AM
ANNE HAS A BIG FAT BOZO IN HER ROOM!Time: 4:49 AM
beware when you go her house alrighty?
anne loves deanne.
anne dont love sheryl ^^
anne treasures sheryl
anne dont treasure deanne D:
RAWRHHHH. hahah.
anne's password is damn easy t guess it's her...
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underwear size. ^^
Written on: Sunday, November 4, 2007
Time: 5:00 AM
you are my babylove. <3Time: 5:00 AM
i just cant get enough of your lalalala.
mann. i am tired.
and bored.
SUPER.
lalala.
im so disapointedd!!
i cant find the songs i want. ):
grouchy.
gah.
anyways,
WED & THURS BABY.
hahahah.
ohh yeah.
just moved into my new house.
busy busy busy.
ahh.
but worth it though.
just that my room is kinda messy nowww. ):
new sofa just came in yesterday.
man, it was RED.
hahah.
i like. (:
anw, lifes been great.
MELISSA, YOU HAVENT BEEN CALLING MEEEEE. ):
not sms also. )):
man, what kind of FRIEND are you huh huh huh huh. LOL.
kidding. (:
shopping soon together yeahh?
together with michelle and the rest?
betcha miss them. : DDD
lollipop.
oh, and to sheryl, : DDD
im sorryy yeahh.
i promise not to write any nasty stuff on my blog to you anymoree. (:
good stuff alrights?? : DDDDDDD
im glad we're back though.
i was DYING for that two days of not smsing.
heh. xD
anyways, no more fights yeahh, bestiee?
ooooh,
andandand,
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP ANNIVERSARY!!
another full month of up and down friendship. :D
we've been friends for like..
6 months?
: D
with loads and loads of fights.
heh heh.
i dont want you to transferrrrrr ))))))))))))):
you pork. >:(((((((
dont lahhhhhh. ):
ask your mum dont signn.
tell her you dont want. ):
or i'll cry badly.
BADLY, I SWEARRR. ))':
but, if you wanna.. i also cant stop you.. ):
*cries*
but dont laaaaaa. ):
dont transfer kay kay? :D
okay.
iloveyouloads. kekeke.
you're my number one, you're my special thang. (:
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ooh.
tomorrow i gotta do housework when my mum's not around ):
now i know why rachael keeps calling me auntie. ):
now i know. :l
hahaah.
buhbyeee.
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