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    Icon: LJ/sixthmile
    Layout: tuesdaynight
    Inspiration: DayBefore!Misery
    Written on: Friday, November 30, 2007
    Time: 9:23 AM

    i feel suffocated without you by my side..
    i've always wanted to say this to you.
    but i thought you didnt care.
    to pet:
    i really feel damn fucked up now.
    i dont know what to do.
    and what not to do.
    grahhhhhhhhhhhh.
    okay.

    i know it was wrong of me to say i wont forgive sheryl okay..
    and im sorry that after that two weeks of hating her, i started talking to her.
    ifeelsoterrible.
    i feel like a traitor.
    and i feel like a backstabber..
    and im really really sorry.
    i really wanna make it up to you.
    but i dont know how to.
    cause im afraid you dont trust me no more.
    no. you dont trust me anymore.
    and i know you wont trust me no more.
    but i really really want you to know that,
    i still do treasure you okay.
    infact, ALOT.
    but i dont wanna accept the fact i am,
    and i dont wanna show it out,
    cause im afraid you dont care about this friendship at all.
    thats why i moved along.
    and i thought the friends by your side now is all what you need.
    that was why i didnt wanna come in between.
    i knew something was wrong when you told shaz you were angry with me.
    and i knew something was wrong when we started drifting apart.
    and i knew something was wrong with me when i started missing you,
    being by my side.
    but when i knew it, it was too late.
    i no longer see you coming to me anymore.
    no longer hear you telling me you trust me alot.
    and no longer recieving you phone calls telling me bout your problems.
    and im not blaming you.
    i'm blaming myself.
    i'm blaming myself for not treasuring you when i had a good opportunity to.
    i'm blaming myself for not expressing myself out well to you.
    and im sorry if i made you feel left out.
    but hey, im not blaming you for having netball all the time okay.
    though i may say im pissed im pissed,
    hey, you think i bear to be pissed at you?
    i wont okay..
    i know you wont believe me.
    and knowing that, i really dont know what to do.
    i want those times back.
    i reallly do.
    but i guess you dont care about me anymore dont you..
    its okay. im just a small fry anyway..

    i want to have a chance to make it up to you.
    but will you give me another chance?
    i doubt so..

    i'm losing all the confidence now.
    because from day 1 i met you till now,
    YOU WERE NEVER OPEN WITH ME.
    you're angry with me.
    at least show it out and lemme know.
    so i know how you feel and i would know what to do.
    sigh. i really dont know what to say now.
    you signed out without telling me.
    thanks.
    thanks ah.