Written on: Friday, December 28, 2007 Time: 5:28 AM
Everytime i think of you, it brings tears to my eyes.
yahoooo. i'm backkkk. miss me miss me? hahah oh yes. MERRYY BELATED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! though i know i wished you guys through sms already. haha. i'm watching the 9 o' clock show nowww. i'm finding it hard to concentrate. :X okayy.
anyway, i shall end the year by saying a few things to people. (: (though i know its still early) and i'll post the video. i dont know if i can, but ohh wells. i shall try later. xD
To michelley ka pooneyy!
hey honeyy. gah. i dont know where to start. there're like so many things i wanna say but i dont know how to put it in words. haha. but first of all, i only start to know you much better that night at the playground. i was kinda shocked when you said those though. haha. but i'm glad you said it out. (: cause i really need to know. but still, i really wanna thank you from the bottom of my heart for always, always being there for me. there were times when i was blind and left you aside. i dont know why im like that. probably new friends do take over me sometimes. and i found out most, no. all are not worth it. like you said, i've better friends to care for and they're not worthy of the many things i've done. sigh. sometimes i just feel like giving myself a slap on my face. but no worries. i've set my priorities right. and i'm gonna change who was i this year and last year. gahh. you mean so so so much to me honey. my bestieeee and you'll always be. <33
to shazzy wazzy!
yoyo!! honeyy! though you and i start to only get close in the hols, but i'm quite sure you mean something to me. though this year has been a roller coaster for you, i'm glad you're strong and you got through. (: anyway darling, thanks for always listening to me whenever i need someone. thanks honey. ILOVEYOU! <33
to petty boob!
hey heyy. i saw your thingy on your blogg (: and heres my reply! yes honey. i shan't be naive anymore. actually, i know it long time ago.. its just, i dont know how to face it. its like someone that mean so much to you can actually backfire you in the end. sigh. ohwell. i wanna thank you for helping me this year. that two weeks i spent with you was fun. (: thanks for being there for me the other time in the drama room when i broke down.. if you weren't there, i would have done silly things to hurt myself even more. that time when we both fought, i was shocked with the things you said. but definately, i appreciate it. though you dont have a glib tongue, i know you meant every word you said. why have a glib tongue when you dont even mean it? haha. i love you lah. oh yes. your present is still with me! see lah! never go out with me. tsktsk. you owe me a lunch date. (: WAHAHHA. i rock.
to melissa.r!
hey dearie! haha. betcha looking forward to read this. haha. anyway, its been fun with you during the hols. you're like the one keeping me strong throughout this whole "roller coaster" thingy. trying to wake me up and all. like what you said today, i've woken up long ago. but i just chose to ignore it. sighh.and now i'm regretting. but i've told myself to leave everything behind and start anew. (: anyway, thanks for always always keeping me strong. wiping my tears away and telling me what to do. (: ILOVEYOUDEARIE!
to deanne
heyy, though we're not really talking now, but i think i should say some things to you as you were part of my life before this year. this year has been such an up and down year for me and you. and i'm sure we're both exhausted. i dont know how this friendship could end thiss way. i dont know if i should blame you, or blame myself. if you still have the thought that you dont mean a thing to me, i shall therefore tell you, you actually do mean a thing to me. but sometimes you just hurt people unknowingly. and sometimes i just find you.. unreasonable with your words. i dont mean to put this on my blog. but i just dont know how to tell you clamly over the phone, sms or msn. cause i know we'll end up making things worse. that 3 smses i sent you, i know its very harsh. but i couldnt help it. i just had to get it outta me and as you know, i cant do it in a calm manner. i hope you take it as a wake up call and not something that i am full of hatred or something. today you sent me a link to your blog. i dont know if i can believe it or not. i dont want to get an answer "you dont believe then dont believe. i cant do anything" cause theres a reason why im unsure about this. i dont know if you're getting what i'm saying, but still, if next year we've nothing to do with each other, i still wanna say thanks for all that you've done this year for me. it was fun though. and sorry for the things that i said and did that got you hurt. merry belated christmas anyway.
to christine!
sorry honey. after so many people then you. haha. anyway, it was really nice knowing you this year. notice this year then we start talking? lol. primary school we're like, enemies. together with michelle. haha. its been fun with you around this dec hol. uhm, though we only went out once. HAHA. but still, it was fun (: loveyou honnayye.
to sheryl
heyhey, though we're AGAIN not talking, still i wanna type this. i dont know if its gonna be long. cause this shall be the very last post i post to you, and about you. this year, i've learnt alot from this friendship. i shall call it a roller coaster. sometimes i'm happy, sometimes i feel like killing myself. i dont know to call myself unlucky meeting you this year, but i shall call it a growing process. My Chapters Of Life. (: we've been fighting for this whole year. i betcha noticed. everytime i tell myself to get over it, but everytime i just cant do it. but this time i can proudly say, i got over this whole roller coaster thing. even if i cant, i will force myself to. i dont know how much i've meant to you this year or what category i fell into. normal friend, good friend or bestfriend, yup, they're just names. i've never believed in bff. but i dont know how you made me start to believe in it again. and believing it, seems like its the wrong thing to do. hah. all i can do is laugh at myself now. anw, probably next year i'll not see you in ij? or will i? haha. whatsoever, those time we had at gallery and macs, those two bus stop rides, those times finding your red panties at your place, those moveis where we used to watch together, those promises you made, that lunch date on the 1st and 2nd day of school, shall all be left in 2007. (: whatever it is, if you're transferring, then may you love your school and have "problem free" class and friends. well, if you dont, then we'll see if we'll sit on each other's table at macs and talk about mel again. haha. its a ffun year, really. (to think about it) haha. but good stuff that arent working out just gotta end at times. it was nice knowing you anw. merry belated christmas and a happy 2008.
yay. im done. (: if i leave anyone out, tagg and lemme know yeah? lol. okayy. presentation time! i shall post it in another post. (:
well i never saw it coming should've started running a long long time ago. i never thought i'll doubt you, i'm better off without you more than you, more than you know.
i'm slowly getting closure guess its really over i'm finally getting better. and now i'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years putting my heart back together. the day i thought i'll never get through, i got over you.
Written on: Friday, December 28, 2007 Time: 5:28 AM
Everytime i think of you, it brings tears to my eyes.
yahoooo. i'm backkkk. miss me miss me? hahah oh yes. MERRYY BELATED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! though i know i wished you guys through sms already. haha. i'm watching the 9 o' clock show nowww. i'm finding it hard to concentrate. :X okayy.
anyway, i shall end the year by saying a few things to people. (: (though i know its still early) and i'll post the video. i dont know if i can, but ohh wells. i shall try later. xD
To michelley ka pooneyy!
hey honeyy. gah. i dont know where to start. there're like so many things i wanna say but i dont know how to put it in words. haha. but first of all, i only start to know you much better that night at the playground. i was kinda shocked when you said those though. haha. but i'm glad you said it out. (: cause i really need to know. but still, i really wanna thank you from the bottom of my heart for always, always being there for me. there were times when i was blind and left you aside. i dont know why im like that. probably new friends do take over me sometimes. and i found out most, no. all are not worth it. like you said, i've better friends to care for and they're not worthy of the many things i've done. sigh. sometimes i just feel like giving myself a slap on my face. but no worries. i've set my priorities right. and i'm gonna change who was i this year and last year. gahh. you mean so so so much to me honey. my bestieeee and you'll always be. <33
to shazzy wazzy!
yoyo!! honeyy! though you and i start to only get close in the hols, but i'm quite sure you mean something to me. though this year has been a roller coaster for you, i'm glad you're strong and you got through. (: anyway darling, thanks for always listening to me whenever i need someone. thanks honey. ILOVEYOU! <33
to petty boob!
hey heyy. i saw your thingy on your blogg (: and heres my reply! yes honey. i shan't be naive anymore. actually, i know it long time ago.. its just, i dont know how to face it. its like someone that mean so much to you can actually backfire you in the end. sigh. ohwell. i wanna thank you for helping me this year. that two weeks i spent with you was fun. (: thanks for being there for me the other time in the drama room when i broke down.. if you weren't there, i would have done silly things to hurt myself even more. that time when we both fought, i was shocked with the things you said. but definately, i appreciate it. though you dont have a glib tongue, i know you meant every word you said. why have a glib tongue when you dont even mean it? haha. i love you lah. oh yes. your present is still with me! see lah! never go out with me. tsktsk. you owe me a lunch date. (: WAHAHHA. i rock.
to melissa.r!
hey dearie! haha. betcha looking forward to read this. haha. anyway, its been fun with you during the hols. you're like the one keeping me strong throughout this whole "roller coaster" thingy. trying to wake me up and all. like what you said today, i've woken up long ago. but i just chose to ignore it. sighh.and now i'm regretting. but i've told myself to leave everything behind and start anew. (: anyway, thanks for always always keeping me strong. wiping my tears away and telling me what to do. (: ILOVEYOUDEARIE!
to deanne
heyy, though we're not really talking now, but i think i should say some things to you as you were part of my life before this year. this year has been such an up and down year for me and you. and i'm sure we're both exhausted. i dont know how this friendship could end thiss way. i dont know if i should blame you, or blame myself. if you still have the thought that you dont mean a thing to me, i shall therefore tell you, you actually do mean a thing to me. but sometimes you just hurt people unknowingly. and sometimes i just find you.. unreasonable with your words. i dont mean to put this on my blog. but i just dont know how to tell you clamly over the phone, sms or msn. cause i know we'll end up making things worse. that 3 smses i sent you, i know its very harsh. but i couldnt help it. i just had to get it outta me and as you know, i cant do it in a calm manner. i hope you take it as a wake up call and not something that i am full of hatred or something. today you sent me a link to your blog. i dont know if i can believe it or not. i dont want to get an answer "you dont believe then dont believe. i cant do anything" cause theres a reason why im unsure about this. i dont know if you're getting what i'm saying, but still, if next year we've nothing to do with each other, i still wanna say thanks for all that you've done this year for me. it was fun though. and sorry for the things that i said and did that got you hurt. merry belated christmas anyway.
to christine!
sorry honey. after so many people then you. haha. anyway, it was really nice knowing you this year. notice this year then we start talking? lol. primary school we're like, enemies. together with michelle. haha. its been fun with you around this dec hol. uhm, though we only went out once. HAHA. but still, it was fun (: loveyou honnayye.
to sheryl
heyhey, though we're AGAIN not talking, still i wanna type this. i dont know if its gonna be long. cause this shall be the very last post i post to you, and about you. this year, i've learnt alot from this friendship. i shall call it a roller coaster. sometimes i'm happy, sometimes i feel like killing myself. i dont know to call myself unlucky meeting you this year, but i shall call it a growing process. My Chapters Of Life. (: we've been fighting for this whole year. i betcha noticed. everytime i tell myself to get over it, but everytime i just cant do it. but this time i can proudly say, i got over this whole roller coaster thing. even if i cant, i will force myself to. i dont know how much i've meant to you this year or what category i fell into. normal friend, good friend or bestfriend, yup, they're just names. i've never believed in bff. but i dont know how you made me start to believe in it again. and believing it, seems like its the wrong thing to do. hah. all i can do is laugh at myself now. anw, probably next year i'll not see you in ij? or will i? haha. whatsoever, those time we had at gallery and macs, those two bus stop rides, those times finding your red panties at your place, those moveis where we used to watch together, those promises you made, that lunch date on the 1st and 2nd day of school, shall all be left in 2007. (: whatever it is, if you're transferring, then may you love your school and have "problem free" class and friends. well, if you dont, then we'll see if we'll sit on each other's table at macs and talk about mel again. haha. its a ffun year, really. (to think about it) haha. but good stuff that arent working out just gotta end at times. it was nice knowing you anw. merry belated christmas and a happy 2008.
yay. im done. (: if i leave anyone out, tagg and lemme know yeah? lol. okayy. presentation time! i shall post it in another post. (:
well i never saw it coming should've started running a long long time ago. i never thought i'll doubt you, i'm better off without you more than you, more than you know.
i'm slowly getting closure guess its really over i'm finally getting better. and now i'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years putting my heart back together. the day i thought i'll never get through, i got over you.
Dirty FUNK!
ANNE
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