sometimes i wonder how people change so fast. even if you see them everyday, they would just change drastically. blame it on the different classes? or blame it on the person who changed. or blame it on me for not knowing how to lead the person? or blame it on me for being so sensitive. but i know it's been too much and i dont think i can hold it any longer. i despise people who uses dialect vulgarities, yes i do. i despise people who also uses rough dialect words. it's not that dialect languages cannot be used. its a form of language just like the typical global language that we're all using nw; english. but dont use it till it sounds so gross to the ears. neither do you use it all of a sudden. neither do you have to use it for fun just becos you cant think of any english words to replace it.
dont even come up with an excuse that your whole class uses it. my father, my mother, my relatives use it all the time. my mom scolds me till she can even call me a prostitute in dialect. my mom uses all sorts of language when she's angry. and worse, it's everyday. but i understand and i dont even get influenced by it.
sometimes i just wonder whether do you even think before you say your sentences. i wonder too, where's the friend that hated vulgaries. whenever i said 'fuck', she says i should stop it. and becos i know she cared and i know she dislikes it, i tried my best to change and use it only when i'm super angry. read all my posts, when did i ever use FUCK in all the sentences even if i'm not angry? do i say, 'today i'm so fucking happy. today i went to a fucking cinema and watched a fucking funny show.' or did i even say, 'i used it only when i'm FUCKING angry' in the previous sentence?
i know when i'm angry i'll have a full post with FUCKS. but it's better than making it into a word that dont seem to be a vulgar word.
and now what? she's becoming more rough and vulgar than me. vulgarities aint only the issue. how about rough languages? was it so necessary to use such a rough word in your daily sentence? like, SIBEI? my dad uses SIBEI. and when i used it when i was young, I GOT WACKED WITH A CANE BY HIM. he said it's too much for a girl to use it like me.
i dont blame it if you say you're influenced. but if you know that you're influenced, the obvious thing is to do something about and not build it up.
stealing, taking ec, whats more? teaching you, turning you around, care for you, love you, trust you, what more do i have to do? when i just barely said, i dont care, you make it into such a big issue. i said i dont care becos i know if i care, you'll find me a nuisance. why do i think that way? cos whatever i told you what's wrong or right, you dont listen. still want me to care. dont you think you're too much huh.
when i told you it's wrong, you can tell me it's not wrong cos your friend told you it's not. and you can still tell me, CHILL LA. chill, yeah, i will. finally, i will. i dont think i should blow up also. you dont even care about where you're really going. find me unreasonable for all you want. i rather be lose everyone than to waste my time on someone that doesnt listen. just like you.
i dont even know why do i care so much about you more than you, caring about your OWN life. becos of you, i dont know how much i've teared and how many things i've sacrificed. and if becos of vulgarities and rough dialect words and we end this friendship, truthfully, i find it a waste. and if nothing's gonna make you change, then i guess i've got nothing to lose. to think about it, you're the one making things so messed up.
everyday cos of you, i've to wait like some mad dog, killing my time cos of you. and it's not like you waiting for for me cos i'm late BY 5-10 MINS IN THE MORNING. i wait FOR HOURS. think for yourself what i've said to you before. you do what you like, while making people suffer. issit too much telling you beforehand that i'm afraid people would not wait for me after animation and ask you to be back in tp by 330? issit too much to ask as a bestfriend? not making your bestfriend wait for you too long? luckily there was rachael waiting with me.
dont tell me you waited for me during my dance period. you were sure someone is wating with you. and moreover, its something that i have to be there for. it's not like i'm having fun and making you suffer.
and what, the other times. making me wait and wait for you to get ready, not knowing what to do at home while waiting cos my mom is always grumbling. and you? happily sit infront of your couch, watching tv. you know you're late, you're still sitting right there. even when i've got not enough sleep, i purposely force myself up just to get ready to be in time to meet you. and you? what have you done?
to think about it, i dont know why did i change whenever you disliked something. starting from tying french pletes to vulgarities to studying to using the com too much. what have you done for me then besides making me quarrel with you. you think i like it?
sigh. i've got nothing more to say. i'll return the shoes on tues including every bit that i owe you.
this doesnt even hurt you huh? you dont even feel sorry at all? how about the letter you wrote to someone ADMITTING you're changing. you make no sense to me. anw, it's your call. return me my shoes? i will listen to you for the last time and give it back to you. i'vegot no regrets for picking this fight with you.
oh, and whatever i said at the top, if any of you feel offended by it, then i'm sorry. i dont care if you're using it or not. as i only care for the one person this post is referring to.
she used to be the sweetest girl;
Written on: Friday, August 8, 2008 Time: 3:07 AM
sometimes i wonder how people change so fast. even if you see them everyday, they would just change drastically. blame it on the different classes? or blame it on the person who changed. or blame it on me for not knowing how to lead the person? or blame it on me for being so sensitive. but i know it's been too much and i dont think i can hold it any longer. i despise people who uses dialect vulgarities, yes i do. i despise people who also uses rough dialect words. it's not that dialect languages cannot be used. its a form of language just like the typical global language that we're all using nw; english. but dont use it till it sounds so gross to the ears. neither do you use it all of a sudden. neither do you have to use it for fun just becos you cant think of any english words to replace it.
dont even come up with an excuse that your whole class uses it. my father, my mother, my relatives use it all the time. my mom scolds me till she can even call me a prostitute in dialect. my mom uses all sorts of language when she's angry. and worse, it's everyday. but i understand and i dont even get influenced by it.
sometimes i just wonder whether do you even think before you say your sentences. i wonder too, where's the friend that hated vulgaries. whenever i said 'fuck', she says i should stop it. and becos i know she cared and i know she dislikes it, i tried my best to change and use it only when i'm super angry. read all my posts, when did i ever use FUCK in all the sentences even if i'm not angry? do i say, 'today i'm so fucking happy. today i went to a fucking cinema and watched a fucking funny show.' or did i even say, 'i used it only when i'm FUCKING angry' in the previous sentence?
i know when i'm angry i'll have a full post with FUCKS. but it's better than making it into a word that dont seem to be a vulgar word.
and now what? she's becoming more rough and vulgar than me. vulgarities aint only the issue. how about rough languages? was it so necessary to use such a rough word in your daily sentence? like, SIBEI? my dad uses SIBEI. and when i used it when i was young, I GOT WACKED WITH A CANE BY HIM. he said it's too much for a girl to use it like me.
i dont blame it if you say you're influenced. but if you know that you're influenced, the obvious thing is to do something about and not build it up.
stealing, taking ec, whats more? teaching you, turning you around, care for you, love you, trust you, what more do i have to do? when i just barely said, i dont care, you make it into such a big issue. i said i dont care becos i know if i care, you'll find me a nuisance. why do i think that way? cos whatever i told you what's wrong or right, you dont listen. still want me to care. dont you think you're too much huh.
when i told you it's wrong, you can tell me it's not wrong cos your friend told you it's not. and you can still tell me, CHILL LA. chill, yeah, i will. finally, i will. i dont think i should blow up also. you dont even care about where you're really going. find me unreasonable for all you want. i rather be lose everyone than to waste my time on someone that doesnt listen. just like you.
i dont even know why do i care so much about you more than you, caring about your OWN life. becos of you, i dont know how much i've teared and how many things i've sacrificed. and if becos of vulgarities and rough dialect words and we end this friendship, truthfully, i find it a waste. and if nothing's gonna make you change, then i guess i've got nothing to lose. to think about it, you're the one making things so messed up.
everyday cos of you, i've to wait like some mad dog, killing my time cos of you. and it's not like you waiting for for me cos i'm late BY 5-10 MINS IN THE MORNING. i wait FOR HOURS. think for yourself what i've said to you before. you do what you like, while making people suffer. issit too much telling you beforehand that i'm afraid people would not wait for me after animation and ask you to be back in tp by 330? issit too much to ask as a bestfriend? not making your bestfriend wait for you too long? luckily there was rachael waiting with me.
dont tell me you waited for me during my dance period. you were sure someone is wating with you. and moreover, its something that i have to be there for. it's not like i'm having fun and making you suffer.
and what, the other times. making me wait and wait for you to get ready, not knowing what to do at home while waiting cos my mom is always grumbling. and you? happily sit infront of your couch, watching tv. you know you're late, you're still sitting right there. even when i've got not enough sleep, i purposely force myself up just to get ready to be in time to meet you. and you? what have you done?
to think about it, i dont know why did i change whenever you disliked something. starting from tying french pletes to vulgarities to studying to using the com too much. what have you done for me then besides making me quarrel with you. you think i like it?
sigh. i've got nothing more to say. i'll return the shoes on tues including every bit that i owe you.
this doesnt even hurt you huh? you dont even feel sorry at all? how about the letter you wrote to someone ADMITTING you're changing. you make no sense to me. anw, it's your call. return me my shoes? i will listen to you for the last time and give it back to you. i'vegot no regrets for picking this fight with you.
oh, and whatever i said at the top, if any of you feel offended by it, then i'm sorry. i dont care if you're using it or not. as i only care for the one person this post is referring to.
she used to be the sweetest girl;
Dirty FUNK!
ANNE
IJTP
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